A Bridesmaids First Night is the story of a young woman discovering who she truly is.Tamara is always the bridesmaid and never the bride. But maybe she doesnt want to be a bride, or maybe she doesnt know what she wants. Until she meets Lillian.“You are very beautiful,” Lillian whispers softly.And the big room is suddenly gone and there is only her. I break out into goosebumps. I swallow. I bite my lip. Her finger brushes over my hands and our hands become a tangle. Tentatively, I reach out and touch her knee."Does your family know you’re gay?” she whispers into this moment of heartbeats.“No,” I sigh. They don’t know. How could they know when I don’t even know?“But I do,” she says."How?” I ask. How can you know when I pretend even to myself?“Because you shiver when I touch you,” she says, running her finger up my arm.And I do shiver, and tingles spark to life in places way down below. I feel like a flower blooming for the first time.And life begins for Tamara with passion.