Behind these walls, it all starts over—new rules, new people, new stress, new food, and a new environment. There’s time to think, think about things I didn’t before, things I hate, things I need, and the reasons I’m here. I’m here because of the decisions I and others have made. I’m taking the fall for most and doing more time than I ever have and being put down further than I already am. I’m taking disrespect, feeling as if I don’t belong and never did. With all the stress building up, it’s hard not to explode. After being in here for so long, I barely know myself. I put on a mask, hiding my emotions and feeling nothing but being alone, unappreciated, unrecognized. Sometimes I think I’m becoming a society soldier being formed into someone I don’t know. I wake up every morning after sleeping like crap and see the lights that never turn off, the white brick walls, a metal toilet, a door in my favorite color. I sleep on a concrete slab, but I guess it’s not that bad. I’m no stranger to moving. I’ve slept on, eaten, and been through worse. I’ve been to the point of no return, but that one thought keeps me pushin’, and I’m glad it has because without it, I might not have been here today. With all I’ve learned and continued to learn, I’m starting to see a future, and I’m starting to plan, to take control, to form my life. With all the time I’ve had in here to relax, I find it hard with everything on my mind—my mom, my dad, my future, my failures, and how I’m going to change to create myself. One of the hardest things is being away from everything I’ve worked for—my work, my family, my friends, and my future. And behind these walls, some just don’t understand what some of us go through. Some say we’re just reckless kids or we never should have been born, but what they don’t know is that we’re just lost in an ever-growing world that is always changing and because of one decision, our lives were changed. So my message to you is this: think before every decision because your time and freedom are the most important things in our lives. Don’t waste your time and freedom behind any walls besides the ones you built and build.