In February of 2000, Marilyn began a gradual exploration of her submissive sexual needs. Over the next seven and a half months her entire existence was turned upside down as, step by step, she gave control of her life over to her new landlady. Her journal from that period records all her inner thoughts and torments as she struggles to accept her deep need to be dominated and humiliated.While I first met her in September of that year, I have only read her journal from that year now, ten years later. After reading the first month I just knew we had to share it with the world.She is an emotional masochist who has some deep need for inner conflict. I doubt there has ever been such a detailed, voyeuristic view into the desires, conflicts, and contradictions of a "humiliation-sub".This really is a must-read for anyone interested in the bizarre inner workings of a submissive womans mind, whether you are a Top who wants to learn how their brains are wired or a bottom who wants to know that you are not alone.