At eleven years old a young boy is told that God has chosen him to become a Catholic missionary monk and priest; the choice is not his to make. He joins the Redemptorist Order and spends the next 11 years being schooled in the way he is expected to live for the rest of his life. He must leave his family to lead a secluded monastic life, making no close friendships and taking vows of poverty, chastity and obedience. When doubts arise in his mind he strives to overcome them, studying all the harder, but eventually he realises that he is not happy in the only life he knows. When he spends time in hospital and falls in love his thoughts crystallise. Only then is he able to make his final decision about the life he wants to live. This autobiographical work brings Stephen's story to life and its moving narrative comes to a truly emotional conclusion.