Sundari, who's mother dies giving birth to her, is first bought up by her father. As he is a drunkard her grandmother takes charge of her, later her aunt brings her up along with her son, Mathew. Sundari who aspires to be a scientist, a model, a diva and a lot more ends up being a psychiatrist and leads a miserable, lonely life. She blames her family, her ugliness, her society, her grandmother, her aunt, her brother and above all God for her present state. While she lives brooding over her past, her brother Manu, who shared the same childhood with her becomes a successful dentist. When a burn victim, her once beautiful ex-classmate, comes to her seeking help she is in a dilemma. Again, when one of her patients who is five years younger to her asks her to marry him , she hastily agrees even though she is aware of his unhealthy mind. This book contains the life of Sundari from six years to thirty four years - her ambitions, aspirations and her strong desire to go to America leaving her past behind.